About
My Most Recent Story
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I have two passions; the creative process and dreams. To me, dreaming is the purest form of self honesty, creativity
emerges from the dream-time, and the best art is naked languid and revealing. I write from a place where I have nothing to hide, from the place where the creative and the dream meet…
Penned December 3, 2012
I am a writer interested in experimental mediums of publishing. Books are one thing, but the internet has opened new opportunities for writers; self publishing, digital ebooks, pdfs, newsletters, blogs, social media, print on demand… And with all these new publishing platforms there are just as many or more ways for readers to engage with the words.
For writers we have to remember that the product is our voice and it is up to us to decide the best way to package that voice. I don’t think books are the only way.
I write and I write a lot. I hit the publish button nearly every day and on a monthly basis I gather what I have done, where I have been and what I have penned in a journal publication. The Journals are available on the Dream-Speak website in a digital format as well as in a printed 8″ x 8″ e-zine publication.
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Penned July 23, 2012
I can’t say for sure where my writing journey began, but I know I was infected by moonlight and daydreams at a very young age. They tried to cure me in the public school systems, but the medicine did not take.
I wish I could save all the dreamers bored to tears in the classrooms across the world, kind of like a Catcher in the Rye, but I can only work on saving my little corner.
Passionate writers are born with a need to add something more to what they have seen. They are not created by MFAs, by blogging or even by writing books.
I am not impressed by the letters after your name, although I am sure you earned them squarely. I am not impressed by your subscriber numbers or your klout score or even by how many of your friends you got to buy your book. I simply want to feel your words.
I want to be moved by your art. I want my story to be complete in yours.
Passionate writers live with a need to script. We were blessed and sent here maybe by a league of angels. How else would we have appeared on this strange earth? But then again, I can only speak for myself. Maybe there are writers who fell into their craft later in life.
I want to keep this ‘About’ page short. I want to get to the point and not embellish it with too many details. There is no need to tell you when I started blogging, when I published a chap book or the wrong turns I took understanding the online world. If you want to know all that you can simply ask. I’ll tell you what I know. I’ll tell you where I’ve been.
Right now is what matters, the story I am living now, this is what matters.
As I write this in the gloaming on a balmy evening in July, I call myself a writer, but I have a hard time fitting into the title of a poet as I am called by many. Do I want to be a poet? Or to simply live a poetic life?
We do find our poetry, after all, when we get on with the business of getting on with our lives.
Poetry is a life’s study – A nearness of objects – Of callings – Birds and creatures
It is a life long excavation – A steadying when I come too close to defining -
Reminding myself not to use words like love, god or beauty -
But instead to experience them and use the gift of noticing to pen their dance on a page -
I don’t believe poetry can survive in the black and white.
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Influences? I am sure I’ve had many, but there is one who always comes to mind.
Joseph Campbell was the writer who influenced me the most, not in my style, but in my view of the world.
When I was around seventeen I dreamt that he sat across from me on a couch. He leaned up, motioned for me to come over and said, ‘We want you on our side.’
I got up and started walking.
I am still in mid stride
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The sun is gone. I can’t understand why they don’t put lights on keyboards. I can barely find the right keys to delete the things I never meant to say.
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My signature actually says Nicole tilde (pronounced Nicole tilde or simply Tilde.)
A nickname I earned a couple of years ago. Of course if you have made it to the end of this page,
you are privy to this info and if you yell ‘Hey Tilde’ across a crowded room – I might
just turn around and smile.
I am in the midst of changing my name legally to Nicole Tilde because my current last name of Rushin was my married name. Going back to my maiden name feels like stepping backwards.
Here are some of my current offerings
I publish a monthly journal called Dream-Speak for creatives and dreamers. Along with this Journal I offer subscribers access to the Dream-Speak blog, the place where I trace out ideas, connect threads, live in the process and sometimes, when necessary, I leave things unsaid…
I also have a Dream-Speak Group in Facebook, where we talk about symbols, dreams, creativity and integration. Come find me on Facebook, message me and let me know you want to join the group.
My approach to dreams is not one of interpretation or analysis, but of integration. The symbols are speaking to us. What are the aspects of the bear or the eagle that we want to integrate within ourselves? They often hold the strength and conviction we need to work through our days and to bring more grace and compassion into our relationships.
It all might sound quite serious, but I am really fun at heart. Life is funny, ironic and mysterious. When we put away the fierceness of our Mountain Lion the only thing left to do is laugh. Laughter is the breath, the manna, the water the Dolphin seeks. Joy is the chaotic circling of the hummingbird.